[[Cinderella's Moments]]

Sunday, September 25, 2005

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Work was stressed.. a bit too much for me to take.. but i'll hang on and hopefully i'll overcome it.. but i'm still on a lookout for better jobs... i can't afford to have NO job because of my 看我七十二变 project.. whahaha..

Ate crystal jade yesterday at Northpoint. I luv the 小笼包. oh my, its so juicy inside and the 锅贴.. so yummy.. Shun commented that its the best 锅贴 he has ever eaten.. It was slightly fried at the bottom and the top and fillings are like those that u steam... The 口感 is so nice.. and ate 拉面 too.. super full in the end.. shall try the 上海排骨拉面 next time, seems nice..

I'm having my interview test tomorrow and i'm still not fully prepared for it.. oh gosh.. I really in no mood to prepare man.. super stress..

[[Last Wrote]]*|9:43 PM|

Sunday, September 18, 2005

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I'm going on a high degree transformation process.. whahahaha..

peep out there, i'm gonna put on braces.. finally made up my mind after pondering thru this issue for years.. really.. i mean years.. have been giving it a thought since poly and there were times back then that i really wanna go for it but constraints drew me back.. yes, the $$ issue.. but now, i've decided to just head for it.. $$ is still a issue but i think i can overcome this problem.. told my parents abt my decision.. (not to ask for permission but only to inform them abt it cos i have made up MY decision.I dun wan them to be shock and surprise when they see me home one day with metals on my teeth..)

Money is tight for me man.. gonna spent on braces, facials and all.. all for aesthetic purpose.. whahaha.. we are only young once so we should make ourself prettier mah.. whahahaa.. but i'm really touched by the support given to me by Shun. He always encourage me to do all these.. even willing to support me financially.. hee hee~~ i mean how many guys out there willing to splurge so much money on their girl?? but i'm not so spoilt k, i'll pay most of the $$ and only need his help when i really need it.. thanks anyway..

so ppl out there, if ya have any job lobang do inform me k.. i'm exploring better job opportunities.. hee hee~~ for the time being, i shall postphone my plan for getting the car license.. shall do it next year, maybe beginning next year.. oh man.. so many things for me to achieve and all these mean $$$$$.. hiaz..

and i wanna go on holiday!!!! My parents may be going Shanghai next yr.. I wanna go!!! but i doubt they will be bringing me along cos it means they have to pay for one more adult fare.. and my brother may going to Shanghai/Su zhuo this mth for exchange.. i so envy.. i wanna make sure he brings back lots of good stuff for me.. whahahaa..

[[Last Wrote]]*|9:44 AM|

Sunday, September 11, 2005

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There is always a period of crucial time per mth that women have to undergo their emotion rollar roster.. And sadly enough that i'm suffering them now.. Felt particularly emotional now.. i dun noe think its purely the act of hormones.. but i hate it.. hate it..

My body wasn't functioning very well recently, haven't really slept well for the past days and i felt really exhausted.. Was in a pretty bad mood this whole day.. my lower body was kinda numb and my head hurts.. I dread the sunlight.. They made me feel terrible.. slept almost the whole day and ate only a few mouthful.. my stomach was hurting like hell and i just feel like dying... I wish to have you by my side but you aren't.. You would prefer to sit down right in front of your computer at home and the only things you said to me is have a good rest... Does those words made me in any way feel better.. NO..NO..NO.. they don't...

We are supposed to go for dinner with kai and co.. but i chose not to go.. i dun have any mood to eat neither did i wan to leave home.. I'm so dead-looking now that if anyone saw me they will be scared out of their life.. You went ahead and i dun blame u.. My emotion is acting up again.. Its 10 p.m now and you all have finished ur dinner.. i guess should be on ur way for Party world.. I have a sudden feel of loneliness in me.. The thought of you having fun out there while i'm at home suffering is terrible.. All i wan is a look from you.. Why can't guys be sensitive?? They aren't and i believed they will never do... Again and again i experieced the same things.. i feel so sick and tired of it..

You made me feel so loved somedays while u made me so sad on others.. You hold me in your arms telling me how much u love me yesterday.. however, in less than 24 hrs time, i feel 180 degrees change in ur attitude.. i dun know wat's guys is up to.. People say gals are unpredictable creatures but i on the other hand think that guys are actually the ones..

Pls dun make me have this feeling again.. I'm so afraid of experiencing loneliness again.. I guess tears would be the one accompanying through my sleep tonight.. i hate them.. But i know you wont know how i'm feeling now.. cos you never ever thought of how i feel..

[[Last Wrote]]*|9:50 PM|